December 2010
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Strength.
It’s hard to be strong when you’re constantly dealing with bullshit and the things that people throw at you at the most random times. How many times have I broken down because of it? Countless, but if we continue to stay down and not make an effort to get back up, we are only failing ourselves. Every time I’ve fallen, I’ve gotten back up. If I give up, I’m...
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A Permanent Temporary Escape.
There are those moments in life where it has us at our necks, it’s those moments which makes it seem like life is unbearable. So in order to gain a little bit more control, or just feel a bit more at ease with ourselves we take a temporary escape. That may be drugs, smoking, or simply just running away from everything.
In order to take steps forward we...
Some people’s self esteem and confidence seems to be easily destroyed. Does really seeing an attractive member of the same sex drop your self esteem to the point where you look down on yourself? Some of you need to work on your character, or just accept who you are. Even if you don’t have the best looks there’s so many other ways you can be attractive. The way you present...
Oh silent night.
Looking through the window as the car speeds by at a glorious 15 miles an hour, it gives me some time to think and wonder about the things around us. Not a single star in the night sky and the moon is no where in sight. No one seems to care except those who are just like me; a passenger just waiting to arrive at their final destination. Are the stars tired of rarely anyone...
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Quantity vs. Quality
Some people say that they would want to live up to 100 or live as long as they possibly can, but I don’t see the point in doing so if you don’t have anything worth mentioning that you’ve done in your life. Your life shouldn’t be measured in how long you lived but rather how good your years were.
You should be doing the things that make you happy, and...
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This Christmas has just been like every other one before. Nothing but good vibes and plenty of laughter being passed around from cousin to cousin. Turn up “Florence and the Machines” and just chill until midnight. Just like any other party, all the grownups are either chit chatting away or gambling in order to scrap a few bucks from everyone else.
I love being around family, we are...
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Inconsistent.
Some people are so inconsistent with the things they say and do. One day they’ll say one thing and won’t mean it the next. The way they push and pull. The strings they tug with all their might one way then another. I wonder how much damage they think they can do before I shatter. In pieces is how I fall, taking blows to the chest until my breathing becomes jagged. Pains...
Your Happiness Before Mine.
I tell everyone in order to be happy or to find your happiness you need to put yourself before others. It’s okay to be a little selfish and just pursue happiness. But despite what I may write about or what I may say, I always put people’s happiness before mine. I feel that they deserve happiness before I do, so I’ll do everything I can to help them...
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I rely on myself for my happiness. When things get hard, I try not to talk to anyone about what’s going on in my life. If it gets to that point where it becomes unbearable I only open up to one person. When I’m upset or when my thoughts are all messed up I try to isolate myself from the world until I find a way to make myself feel better.
Even though I keep to myself, I like it when...
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Relying on yourself for happiness.
When life has me at a corner where I’m left with no options and no room for optimism I resort to the things that will spring me right back to life. I sit down and jot every thought possible that runs through my mind right here. I find new air that gives me life through dancing. What will become of me if these things would no longer suffice in maintaining...
“My Style, my flavor.” - Bboy Born
No matter what anyone says to you, or bags on what you’re doing, don’t let it get to you. As long as you remain true to yourself and as long as the things you do keep you happy continue doing them. There will be constant criticism thrown your way and it’s up to you on how you’ll deal with it. You could allow it to affect who...
I enjoy making people feel better. At the end of the talk, they sometimes would say thank you. If I was having a horrible day, just hearing those few words flips my world right side up again. Knowing that I was able to do something just to make them feel even a little better makes my day shine.
But on rare occasions, I’m completely dumbfounded. I don’t know what to say, and I...
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For a while, I have been thinking to myself whether I’m a good person or not; on good days I simply do not care. But on nights like this I always become curiouser and curiouser to my own questions. Maybe I’m just trying to find some reasoning for the chaos that goes on in my own little world or maybe I’m simply just bored and trying to keep myself on my toes.
Things happen for a...
Taken for granted.
We have a belief that the things that mean the most to us will stick around. We don’t really take into consideration that it could be gone tomorrow. “Most human beings have an absolute and infinite capacity for taking things for granted.” -Aldous Huxley
We feel safe, we let loose because we feel that since we already have it, it won’t disappear. The grasp we have...
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I want a person to fall for me for who I am and not what I can offer. I can give you happiness, and the little things you want in a relationship. But those things should just be icing on the cake, I want you to fall for me. If you tell me you love me when things are going good, that’s fine and all but I want to be able to hear, “Don’t get me wrong I still love you,” even...
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I’m excited about this winter break. It has just started and I’m already feeling more relaxed. Every winter break usually consists of the same things but I don’t mind, I enjoy the things I do. A trip down to Vegas, I’m not old enough to gamble or anything but it serves as at temporary escape. When I’m there, I feel more at ease with myself seeing that I’m not...
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Every day should be a day where you can tell a story from it. The likelihood of this happening is pretty low, but it doesn’t mean you can’t try. Not stepping out of your comfort zone is safe but I do think it could get boring. When I get older I would want to be able to reminisce, and tell those around me about my experiences and adventures in life.
Countless of stories just because...
I always hated when people would play games with me. Those games where they seem to be testing me, instead of asking me straight up they’ll test to see if I keep to my word. Instead of being straightforward with it, they’ll beat around the bush until they get what they want. Intentionally pushing my buttons to see how far they can push me, picking at my insecurities to see what...
Sometimes I just want to take a step back slowly and blend into the crowd. Just to see if anyone notices that I’m gone, I can see you but you won’t be able to see me. I mean look, if you already have what you’ve been wanting, there’s no longer for me to be there anymore. But if it comes to the point where you lose those things and come looking for me, you’ll notice...
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I love having friends who have different taste in music. Getting together, linking up our computers and sharing what we think sounds good. I love it.
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“You find a glimmer of happiness in this world, there’s always someone who wants to destroy it.” - Finding Neverland
You find something that makes you happy, you can see the change in yourself and your perception on life has changed as well. But then someone or something comes around who tries to get rid of your happiness. There will always be someone who tries to stand in the...
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Let’s go somewhere. Forget about Disneyland, forget about the movies, just forget about the typical things. Instead, let’s go out at the time you should be in bed. Just an adventure, we’ll drive around the city and roam around the streets of downtown. Walk around and notice the things we can’t notice during the day. The eerie silences, the paranoia of being in the dark,...
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This will be a good week.
It’s only a Monday, and it might be too early to judge where this week will take me, but you know what? It’ll be a good week. Why? Because I’ll make sure it’s a good week. The things around you are open up for your own perception and the way you see them. Having a negative point of view, just brings you down no matter what. I mean it’s safe....
Wishful Thinking.
For some reason, even when we know that things will take a turn for a worse, we still give it a shot. Deep down, we can see that we should be prepared for the worst because it’s going to happen. We know it, and other people warn us that it won’t do good for us, yet we still do it.
For some weird reason, we believe that it is possible for things to turn out the way...
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I hate school. I really hate it. Same routine every day. Drag to wake up in the morning, and collapse as soon as I get home. You can’t trust anyone, every corner you look there’s the hottest gossip going on. No one really has friends, people always talking behind their backs. Gotta love it.
There’s this one girl though, that I can’t help but notice. She sits directly two...
Late night, early morning talks mean a lot to me. We continue talking through the night until the sun rises. We say we’ll sleep in a few minutes, but those few minutes turn into hours. I don’t mind it though, I enjoy them the most. Just… thank you.
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Give me a temporary escape, anything will suffice. Right now, I’m burnt out and tired. Take me to a place where these thoughts aren’t allowed and where I’ll be numb to the things around me.
The moment you read something and you feel like your heart drops into the pits of your stomach.
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Is smoking unattractive?
I just don’t like the idea of smoking in general. Whether it’s weed or cigarettes, I don’t find it attractive. People can do what they want and they have their reasons for doing so to each their own I guess. I understand that it mellows people out, or helps them relieve stress but isn’t that just a temporary escape? Because once those nostalgic...
“Teach me how to windmill?”
Bboying to me is more than just something to do on your free time. It’s a lifestyle, an art form that speaks differently for and to every individual. You can openly express your emotions through the way you move, from your toprock down to your downrock. You can connect pieces together like a complex puzzle in ways that others haven’t even...
If you go through life deciding how successful you are based on how much money you make, the things you have, and how much superior you feel compared to everyone, you’re going to live a depressing life. I believe that your success should be defined by your happiness. The more happy you are, the more successful you are. Being happy is one of the most important things that anyone should have,...
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Trust.
As much as I’d like to trust what people say, I can’t. My trust for people have been broken down just because of some of the people who have came into my life and left with a bang. Broken promises lead to broken spirits. Lies and deception have been something that I’ve grown accustomed to, just like everyone else. The only difference is that we all handle it differently.
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Safety Net.
I’ve always been a firm believer of backing up your words with actions. I speak with confidence with what I say because I know I can prove it. I’ve been a safety net for people to fall down on when things turn for the worst. I think they realize that I’m able to do so which sometimes people take advantage of.
Sometimes I think I give too much too early, which causes...
The most important people in our lives might wake up and realize that they no longer feel the same way about us. And something like that scares the crap out of me. I just want some consistency in my life. No matter what happens, what we have will remain the same… that would be nice.
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Dreams vs. Reality
As we continue to grow as individuals, we all have our dreams and goals which we would like to accomplish. Those things which would make us the happiest, the types of things we would love to do for a living. But what are the chances of accomplishing such a far fetched and out of reach dream? It’s time for us to snap back to reality and realize that it’s not...
It sucks when someone doesn’t put as much effort as you do. You just want them to meet you around halfway but they have other things on their minds. All you can really do as wait and see what they do, but sometimes if you do that, you won’t get anywhere with them.
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Second Family.
I have a group of friends which have grown together ever since middle school. As high school went on I became closer with them. I thought that we would probably drift apart as soon as we hit college but that wasn’t true at all. I consider every single one of them my best friends, those friends which I can rely on and who I know will have my back if I were to ever need it....
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Emotional. Everyone gets angry, and everyone gets sad. Man or woman, we all have emotions; that’s something that should be known without having to be said. Sometimes we get lost in our emotions and it takes over the best of you. People need to understand that your emotions can be controlled and should be controlled. I’m not saying that you should keep it bottled up, but you should know...
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Joe Hisaishi : Spirited Away...
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Domino Effect.
When something bad happens it’s just seems to have a negative effect causing more bad things to happen. “What else could go wrong?” Everything. When things like this happen it takes a big toll on our stability and state of minds, we want things to go away and just isolate ourselves from everyone else. We just want to have a taste of that happiness that people seem...
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Chapters.
If you could organize your thoughts, memories, your stories it could be stored into chapters. There are some memories where we wish we didn’t have to go through but it happens from time to time and all you can do is continue moving on. Then there are some chapters where you wish it just continued on forever, those thoughts that you wanted to be everlasting but every chapter has to...
Listen to Beethoven.
Lazy day. Off to class