my teacher told me told not to procrastinate on memorizing poetry and we are supposed to perform tomorrow. im fucked
Parents should never tell their children to shut up as significant others should never tell another to shrink because there is only so much space. You should never have anyone make you feel so small when you know your mind has always wandered past shadow dipped skylines and saltwater dreams.
I want to know more.
I would wonder if what I was doing was wrong. I had always asked why things had to be a certain way. Why blue couldn’t be red. Whether or not the windows knew that they couldn’t see anything but the reflection of a soul.
I remember her telling me to size down because my words took up too much space.
That this air was filled with too many questions and she could feel my concerns and curiosity anchoring her lungs.
But, I knew and I knew and I knew that it is better to have more questions than answers because if you are left with only what you are told then how will you grow?
She zip tied my tongue to the roof of my mouth and I could do nothing but choke on the questions that wanted to break through my teeth.
There is more than what we know but these questions should be left unsaid.
I needed to shut my mouth because I was too young then too old; I should already know. She told me to stop asking questions and just leave things as the way they should be.
Tell me something, please.
At the end of everything, I still find myself, here. Here is a place that always had been. Never disappearing even when my thoughts had not wandered into these crevices and stories for so long. Am I burning? I’ll strike my skin against concrete walls and feel the pressure of the earth pulling me into something that shouldn’t be real. These moments are fleeting, but it will always come back.
I apologize about my lack of streaming! :c I don’t like giving excuses, but since this is my senior year of university, I’m getting overwhelmed by the workload. I get home from school and I just kind of sit around watching videos or just messing around on Steam. So, when I get free time, I just use it to relax and cool down from my classes. When I get the groove of things from this Fall semester, I’ll stream regularly again! Thank you for being patient with me. ^^
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― Reality Bites (1994)
Lelaina: I was really gonna be something by the age of 23.
Troy: Honey, all you have to be by the age of 23 is yourself.